. DAN . ع١٥٧ .

Sunday, January 31, 2010,

yeah im getting much quieter these days..

its not im doing it because of my nature..

but its because i dont see the need to interact with 'some people'..

i should have tell the whole world that im no longer

that loser who is just like a tool for anyone's boredom and stuffs..

a message to all: "Talk with me, not to me."

but hey guess what?

in all these events god made me realised that someone out there really

knows how to appreciate..

i dont have high hopes of this nor do i leave it out unattended..

i will definitely reply to those who are willing to show some respect in conversations and many more..

and yes i do take respect and whole-heartedness to a high level..

i dont speak like gangsters do..

well no longer..

speak like gentlemen..

fight like a fighter..

and live like a faithful believer..

its not a choice of being pessimistic or optimistic..

its about living with yourself..

we are after all humans..

hell even machines make mistakes..

~ I dont want to Survive but i want to Live ~

6:14 PM

Friday, January 29, 2010,

what should i post aye?

maybe i should just leave aside all my feelings

except the happy ones for the sake of the planet..

feeling gloomy & sad harms the environment !!

and i should get a Nobel's Prize for that theory okay !!

btw the best thing to do is not to give up..

life's full of choices..

but it lacks of time..

everyday taking the train to school..

i never fail to be excited of watching

the car showrooms along

Redhill..

especially the MINI Habitat !!

cute name kan kan kan ??

i noe i noe i noe !!

and i always take a glance at

the NTU Guild House when the train stops

at Buena Vista..

i aspire to get my degree at NTU..

if not then probably an overseas one..

i guess my long pain-in-the-bottoms

trip to school ain't all that bad after all..

so yea..

HAHAS C:

~ i feel kinda.. good ~

12:46 AM

Thursday, January 28, 2010,

basically my life for this week has seen its ups and downs..

starting to feel like im entering my old boring life again..

im not sure whether this is for the best or worst..

everything happens for a reason right?

i feel so empty now..

i just hate people who acted nice at first..

talk and share a lot with..

then when something happened..

it suddenly became clear that im just

a FVCKING tool for boredom..

typical pure bloods..

i never want to get to know such people anymore..

i should just keep my lineage mixing up with mix bloods..

if you don't understand this..

then i don't know you

8:27 PM

I know I'm not suppose to say this anywhere else but its really hurting.

Keeping too much secrets can be too much to bear.

New places and bigger important things are replacing me.

What if its too late?

Is this how the story ends?

Two different paths.

Maybe I was being too nice.

People tend to remember the bad ones longer than good.

But its how I am.

Its my nature and so be it.

Should I tell?

I must.

~Seem so close yet still so far ~

1:47 AM

Wednesday, January 27, 2010,

i cant believe you'll leave just like that..

maybe you're right..

im sorry..

im very sorry..

things just dun go as plan..

so sorry..

~ honestly, i feel it too ~

3:59 PM

This week started off with such an unwanted feeling.

I tried overcoming it by filling up my time doing something next to boring.

Not much excitement just yet.

But for some this week is very important.

Life's anew is mundane when there is nothing new at all.

With complicated matters hanging over, life has been such a hangover.

Like songs on the radio, you can't see what's next but it might just be awesome.

Seeing is believing, but looks can be deceiving.

Trust can truly bond one another.

~ butterscotch cars & rainbow windows ~

I know I may not be that particular person.

What would it take for me to be him?

What would it take for me to understand?

I hope I know.

Seeing love birds flying off to the horizon.

I hope we can.

12:01 AM

Monday, January 25, 2010,

Okay right now I'm freaking stressed out!

Tomorrow's the deadline and I'm all alone doing it.

Well all alone, for now.

I'm so going to finish my part and throw the rest for others to work on.

Damn, I'm not even the group leader.

But if I were to be, this crap would have been done & covered in dust by now.

When will the day come when I can show my potential?

Its inevitable and that I'm very sure.

~~~ ~~~ ~~~

I don't know where I stand in your eyes.

Sensations of no belonging whatsoever.

Honesty within I bear no lies.

Affections driving me crazy no longer.

I whisper to you.

Everlasting words that I am here for you.

8:36 PM

saw a vid from a fren's wall post..

sumtin bout people who thinks they're gud looking

but in fact they are shitty or weird or both..

ahahs..

der are many of those types in singapore too..

trendy kids and stuffs..

wat about me?

heck im just a dude who's fashion parallels wif my lifestyle..

not by impulse but flowed wif passion..

so wats your verdict??

c'mon enlighten me for a bit aye..

12:21 AM

Sunday, January 24, 2010,

maybe i've reach the time where i can let go of the past ..

my past..

not going to miss it one bit any more !!

because i know there is someone out there under the moonlight

just for me..

so lets hop around like rabbits

and be playful like kittens..

~ cuz i know i'm happy already ~

4:01 AM

Tuesday, January 19, 2010,

got into class after climbing 8 floors of stairs with heavy laptop ..

but teacher arrive a while later..

ouh wells at least i got my morning exercise..

short day after all..

"Mr Gangster", our IA lecturer, blanja us Pizza Hut !!

ate my 3rd slice and im full already..

i think i ate up to 5..

after finishing i walked past SP's very own model..

and we looked into each other and she smiled !!

woah..

im so honoured ~

went home straight after that..

contact lens causing trouble..

anyways..

i cleared my heart of any unwanted feelings..

but i'll never lose my hope..

the Puteri i'm looking for is still out there..

only time separates us from each other..

i'll hold my feelings for now..

i believe i can see the future..

only problem is solving its riddles..

alright love..

~ will miss you until we meet ~

2:08 PM

Monday, January 18, 2010,

All just come and go.

8:08 PM

Sunday, January 17, 2010,

Oh God..

Please help me muster courage to face my weaknesses..

To have the strength to believe in myself..

For you are the only one i fear..

I seek forgiveness from you..

Please give me the courage to say the truth inside..

Amin..

~ Two is better than One ~

3:21 PM

Saturday, January 16, 2010,

Yes its official..

its official that i dunoe wat my feelings are oredi..

its getting thin..

cuz everytime there's a chance

i just dun see it as one..

Maybe ill just be tt guy who's full of new frens tt ends there..

9:36 PM

Friday, January 15, 2010,

I just can't take my mind off this one..

But I can't let my guard down either..

What if its just another one that I recognise from the pasts..

What if history repeats itself and make me go through it all over again..

I was such a quiet one ever since before I know how it felt for the first time..

Lifted up my confidence to a point where if I fall then I'll fall deep..

"The first cut's the deepest."

To me every cut just kept growing more painful each time it comes..

Despite all my solitary defensive self being the outer wall..

This one had just only touched it lightly and left it crumbling down easily..

Special I guess..

The one and only that I won't even think twice..

Made me reckless..

Got me wanting for more..

Left me weak in my heart..

Telling it to skip a beat at every smile I see..

Pushing it to the edge when I go..

Are these words just a mere influence..

A trick of mind..

Yet feelings say the truth from within..

Maybe its only another episode of a small part of my life..

♥ღ♥ღ♥ღ♥ღ♥ღ♥ღ♥ღ♥ღ♥ღ♥

I want to believe she's not just another..

But that she's my only other..

7:33 PM

Tuesday, January 12, 2010,

Kakak owns the iphone 3GS ..

Dad just got one too from starhub watver crap ..

Mum still using her old skool one ..

Adik mcm fhm nak an iphone too ..

Mum asked me, "Bang u can easily go get one too if u want".

So i replied, "Tsk, tt common phone? Im saving for my MINI Cooper S Cabrio."

They laughed, but only god knows that im F***ing serious ..

I dun live being in the same communist + typical interests of others ..

I live out so that the word Special upholds its true meaning in my life ..

Alhamdullilah tt god gives me the advantage of wealth and creativity ...

Oh and i realised, i havent visit my neighbour's pet rabbit for 2010 yet C:

6:55 PM

Sunday, January 10, 2010,

Dear Blog,

Since today is just a day away from the big event of all affected sec school students i guess i should write about my time. I can still remember it vividly. Yet i know that i've intentionally tried to erase it from my memories. Of course its a big deal and all to most of us, but the thing is that mine isn't that glory. So ill land u in in the events right before the O's.

Ever loved someone so much that u would even do crazy things? Yes i have. Oh the times we had, long passed in history. I decided to be such a gentleman towards her. Treating her with everything i can. I'll accompany her to school every morning, even though it means that i have to wake up extra early around 5. I'll wait for her under her block and sometimes i get really nervous because its already late. Yea she tend to be late like, a lot of time. Haha. Still i wont care as long i get to spend my morning with her before school. That's the best thing to do and it does make my day. I know that is the same for her from her sexy smiles and glistening eyes when she comes to me while i'm waiting downstairs. A kiss from her really leaves me wanting more. Hehs. She's a very affectionate one, to me that is. We'll get on a bus by 7 and travel all the way to her school. A kiss to her hand and cheeks before the goodbye. By then it'll already be super late for me. Fortunately my school's nearby to her's. So ill rush off hoping that i could get past the security guard and prefects. Well, mostly ill get through after some "sweet talking". If not then ill get extra hours for detention. But it doesnt matter because my day is already lightened up by my love.

After school i'll usually hang around with my friends first then go to her. Then sometimes ill hav to send her home quickly because she needs to fetch her younger brother from the childcare. The we'll spend the rest of the day together studying, laughing, and a sharing session. Or we'll just hang out with either of our friends. But when my O levels come knocking on my door, things change a little.

The usual routine in the morning stays, only that if i were to be late i'll be doomed. Because who in the right mind will want to miss the O level examination papers? Well i know i wouldn't. She tried playing her part too by preparing to school quicker. But thing is, i will never go off first before her. So being in NCC with some extra fitness does help. Sprinting to school after the kiss is very worth it. But the bad thing is, it'll usually be raining !! So sometimes i'll arrive being wet and all. Then somehow i found some time to dry myself a bit and redo my hair. AHAHHAS. But thank god that i didnt even missed one of the papers. But i did started late for my maths paper. So yea.

I know i have a choice to make during that time. But i chose my girl before me. So let's fast-forward to the results day.

... Me and some of my classmates were instructed to be detained outside the school hall because of some reasons. Many of us have different colors on our hair, wearing improper attire (me), and due to some other reasons that i dont know. So we only get to receive our result slips after the main events in the hall.

Relieved? Yes.

Happy? Maybe.

Disappointed? You think .. ?

Hahs .. because i knew i could have done better for my POA.

Straight A's during sec 3.

Sec 4, flunked a lot.

So i guess maybe i deserve this. Sacrifices for love? That's my story of my ending of sec school life.

But, alhamdullilah i got into Singapore Polytechnic.

Rumours going that my course is being treated with higher 'respect' this year.

So yea, im kinda proud.

~ "There's always a choice." ~

2:16 PM

Saturday, January 9, 2010,

~ Raf Simons for Fred Perry ~

very interested in these..

if you have have seen my Vans now then you'll understand..

it's my longest lasting shoes so far..

its time i find the Heir to its roles..

C: c: C: c: C: c: C: c:

4:29 PM

Friday, January 8, 2010,

~ rght after from SP ~

so far my MST results are crazy..

CRAZILY AWESOME !!

2 A's & 1 C ?

kae luh very disappointing..

should get 3 A*s rite?

well there's de coming FYE..

insyaallah~

9:51 PM

Tuesday, January 5, 2010,

~ i wana laze around like this ~

~ yes.. yes i am Veh Veh curious ~

5:06 PM

Monday, January 4, 2010,

Its the official first day of school for 2010 !! ..

*stadium cheering in de background*

HAHAS ..

Receiving great marks for my exam papers is a

very superduperfreakingagaawesominiacal way to start the term ..

Yea its the final term for my 2nd yr in SP ..

getting excited for 3rd year oredi hehe ..

I think i found another hobby besides playing de acoustic guitar ..

And tt is to write mini songs while playing it !!

Yea sounds kinda lame ..

Maybe i'll work on new ones for every weekend uh ..

Since school hav started and all ..

But one thing bad bout just now was tt im freaking sleepy ..

Saw one article on the webby news saying tt

adolescents with lack of sleep are easily prone to depression and stuffs ..

So i guess since i got to keep my reputation and image at school, ima nid to hav enuf rests ..

Yes I Am Vain.. still Dan though hee ..

I miss the days going to school with my sit-beside-partner-for-sec-3-and-4 girl friend ..

We used to crash into each others' lecture sessions ..

ahahs ..

Hope one day can continue this again ..

Kae tts all .. Im sleepy

6:47 PM

Sunday, January 3, 2010,

~ Missing You ~

The distance shows us the line.

Your hands aren't here with mine.

Time just went by so fast.

Still I dream of our past.

I can feel you in my heart.

My life just kept going hard.

But I'm right here waiting by.

When you go I just don't know why.

(Chorus):

Songs we sang are no longer there.

There's nothing left but the empty air.

I see your face only in my dreams.

Truth's that nothing is what it really seems.

An old picture of you hanging on the wall.

The only thing left before the fall.

Holding on to you is all I know.

Missing you since the day you go.

The day you looked at me in the crowd.

Seeing each other silence us from the loud.

Alas' my wish came true in the end.

Back in my arms so there we're again.

4:33 PM

Saturday, January 2, 2010,

~ I See You - by Dan ~

I have been looking for a way to you.

But a mistake got slipped out my hand.

Somehow after I can feel it hurting me too.

Suddenly it shows that everything has to end.

Every morning and night kept thinking about you.

The one I am looking forward for.

I have been keeping these feelings true.

Instincts and experiences arguing like a war.

(Boy chorus):

I see you.

Sweet and lovely.

I need you.

Because you can save me.

(Girl chorus):

I see you.

Smiling and happy.

Be with you.

Wishing that you will come with me.

(Bridge):

Life is full of sunny sunshines and cloudy rain.

I can spend time as a shelter for you.

Going on a trip on the exciting life train.

As long we are together we will get through.

(Repeat both chorus)

Living without regrets when I know you are around.

Laughing and joking even when we're feeling down.

Loving those times and forgetting the past.

It used to be such an everlast.

(End)

10:16 PM

Because ive known many others before

tt had done de same ..

get frenly, more frenly then when the

sun is up and reality sets in ..

everything change ..

i dun think i deserve to go tru all

tt everytime my heart seems to be open for another ..

Because i noe when i tried not doing so

then i MIGHT missed a chance ..

But wen i do let my guard down for someone new ..

she could be just another one to do de same ..

still ..

i noe there's always this one chance im willing to giv ..

i noe i wont care bout the pain and broken pieces

i hav to face ..

all tt matters is i noe i will be more than happy than being alone ..

since de first words shared wif melodies

i noe she's always right

this one chance ive been keeping for tt True one ..

~ no more echoes in my heart but only her voices ~

2:30 AM

I don't know where I crossed the line
Was it something that I said
Or didn't say this time
And I don't know if it's me or you
But I can see the skies are changing
In all the shades of blue
And I don't know which way it's gonna go

If it's gonna be a rainy day
There's nothing we can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that won't stop the rain
Feeling like you got no place to run
I can be your shelter 'til it's done
We can make this last forever
So please don't stop the rain

~ Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall ~

1:19 AM

Friday, January 1, 2010,

- red.orange.green.blue.violet -

Hello Humans

i welcome u all wif 2 of my open arms to the year

2010 .. or better yet known as Two Thousand & Dan !!

HAHA HEHE .. *yes plz laugh*

anyway hopefully my goals for dis yr will be accomplished

~ "Insyallah" ~

"Kakak still out there partying her ass off .. kak why tak bwk ur adik kesayangan ?!"

1:06 AM